Saturday, December 31, 2011

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As I type this, it isn't 1 Jan 2012 yet, but when I post it, it will be.
So, my typing will be based on the 1 Jan context (:

First things first,

Time has passed so very fast indeed, it's quite scary but it's alright. A new year, a new beginning. It's different and I'm feeling rather apprehensive about next year but I'm glad I can (kind of) start on a new slate. Not totally clean and new, as it's kind of a build up. I'd like to see it as a tiered cake I guess. And every year is another layer. To make a tiered cake, you need various cakes stacked up together. So to speak, every year, every layer would be a build up from the previous year, the previous layer of cake but it's still a fresh and new chunk of cake being stacked up one by one to form the entire tiered cake also known as my life. Okay, this is quite incoherent and seems a bit redundant but I think that's quite important.

To put it simply, although I can't really change what has happened previously because everything is a build up but I can still start anew every year because it's another layer and it's another chance for me to do things differently.

Last year has been a thoroughly enjoyable yet tiring year.
A remarkable class spirit, campaigning, being a second intake, having a lot of fun. 

This year, will hopefully be more amazing, more meaningful and more productive.

And so many people have been such an integral part of 2011, I can't thank you guys enough. So here are the annual dedications!!! (((: If I missed any of you, I'm so sorry! You guys are still in my heart okay!

fellow JUJU

Hello Emily! (:
I think we're quite amazing, really. I still remember in P6 or so, when we decided to stay in contact even after we weren't in the same school and I think so far, we've succeeded! I know, in sec one and a bit of sec two, we were kind of super "on" and we met every Monday on 132, but it kind of died down as we got busier into the year. However, we went strong with major outings, and you've been such a wonderful friend over the years, probably one who understands me the best and you're really awesome! (: The really crazy things we do - like taking retarded videos under the scorching heat in Marina Barrage to riding roller coasters together, I must admit that the #JUJU power is going strong! Oh, and I just love all the amazing ideas we have that always fail/ are not even carried out. It's depressing, but it's already a beautiful feeling to be constructing all these plans. Thank you so so so much, I love you! 

2011 has been brilliant with you, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 

L³NY (:  

gosh guys i realized we don't have a complete photo of us together ):

Hello Angelia, Gillian, Huimin & Nai! :D
Thanks so so so much for this year, really (': Sec two would be so much more different without you guys! I love all of you and the outings we have had were so awesome & fun! We must definitely still stay in contact and wave to each other along the corridors okay! Omg I really can't imagine recesses without you guys. 

Angelia; Hey fellow chair 8) I think this year I've spent a lot of time with you (and I will still continue to, next year for Waddle House Comm!) but anyway, it has been a roller coaster ride, with ups and downs! Mostly ups actually :D You have that iconic pissed face and sometimes I really hate you but you have the other gay, chicken-y and crazy side, which makes me like you more than I hate you :D I still remember how the both of us are the enthu ones of  104/204 and we do crazy things, sacrificing so much but no one really cares about our efforts. I guess it's the process that counts, so thank you!

Gillian; Hey Gillian! :D Stop being so nice okay, man up! 8) Don't let people take advantage of you hehe! But yes, you're such a nice and retarded friend, it's so awesome hanging out with you! You jump at the slightest things and it's so funny how you have an obsession with birds. I think you're such a hilarious person and I love your company so much (': I still remember the times when we used to play Sims at your house, munching on potato chips and you're super entertaining (especially with Stephanie!) You're amazing, thank you!

Huimin; Hey Huimin! (: This shall not be cheesy or lovey-dovey :D Alright yes, I agree with you - I guess our personalities kind of crashed and you might think we aren't really suited to be good friends, but 2011 definitely won't be 2011 without you! You are probably the most entertaining people I've met this year - really! I think you can become an actress or something because your facial expressions can go from happy to just really pissed and it's an amazing skill to have :P You're so funny, thank you!

JieLin; Hi Nai 8) Hoho thanks for living so close to me! (At least I'll have a bus buddy!) I guess I'll still be seeing quite a lot of you next year because of Fiducia, and I'm quite glad! :D I think you're secretly a ninja, with your sneaky little ways stalking people without living traces and spying with your crazy huge owl eyes peeking through those purple owl glasses. I think we've been through quite a lot, and made it out alive :D Oh right, and I can't stand your paranoid-ness! It's so irritating haha you should learn to control your worries, trust me it'll do you good :D I can't stand you sometimes, but more often than not, you're great company! Thanks for being such an amazing friend, you're so retarded, thank you

2011 has been brilliant with you guys, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 


no full class photo )): 

Hey 204 (:
You guys have been such an amazing class really, I think 104 wasn't all that bonded but through our chalets, our class competitions, the spirit really built up and I must say, I'm so fortunate to be part of this wonderful experience. Chalet was such a crazy event, do you guys still remember the night when Class Comm broke down? I think it was quite strange to be in the shoes of you guys but I'd really want to thank y'all so much for working much harder afterwards, being so bonded and I felt so reluctant to leave at the end of the year, really )': We achieved so much, both Netcarn and Drama Nite were so memorable for me, I felt the class spirit when I was standing on that stage, singing my heart out with all the wonderful talents on stage. I didn't feel nervous at all, because I knew that backstage, 35 other hearts were singing with me, supporting me as I went along and I knew that even if the cast screwed things up, no one would have blamed one another but instead face it as a class and be proud that we've given our very best anyway (: I love you guys so much, let's not ignore each other if we see one another on the corridors okay? :D Thank you so much for making this year so memorable!

Special shoutout  to Sexy Sevens, I love you guys (': 

2011 has been brilliant with you guys, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 

CELL (: 
Chunyen JingELouisa Liyin

there's no photo of us alone ): ahh well this captures (part of) House Comm as well, which is equally amazing :D

Hey Louisa, Chunyen and Jingen! :D
Although we've only started working together nearing around the end of 2011, I think the chemistry the four of us have is really something quite good! I feel like the four of us can click so well and I'm so excited to be working so closely with all of you this year! I love you guys!

Louisa; Hey Louisa! :D I think you're going to be an awesome Waddle Captain this year! Really, I think your sense of responsibility is really strong, you're always so on-task on giving instructions and you're really nice as a friend as well (: You constantly give us support and we feel like we can talk to you about anything and I feel like it's going to be an amazing experience working alongside you this year to make Waddle a truly awesome house. I'd can't thank you enough for being the one who, in a casual chit-chat and a small note, brought up the topic of campaigning and encouraging me to run for Waddle Vice-Capt because it's definitely one of the best decisions I have made this year :D Thank you so much, and good luck for sec four! 

Chunyen; Hey Chunyen! :D To be honest, I didn't really know you super well before we became vice captains but I'd always thought you were super cute and really nice! My predictions were proven to be correct! After knowing you I think we really clicked and we could get along really well. I think you're an amazing senior who makes things really fun and I enjoy your company so so much! I'm looking forward to working with you this year to make Waddle a much more wonderful place to be in! :D Jiayou for sec four as well 8) 

JingEn; Hey Jing En! :D Hehe I think this year, we'll be seeing a lot of each other, in Guides as well as Waddle and I think it's going to be so fun! I can't thank you enough for this amazing year, and I still remember the letters we used to write to each other in sec one (why were we even writing to each other xD) but it was an awesome experience - I still remember you gave me Skittles when exams were nearing (: It was such a wonderful feeling and thanks so much for the support you have given me! I'm truly fortunate to have met someone like you (: And during campaigning or sometime after, both of us felt quite insecure and we sent each other inspirational emails, it helped so much and I truly appreciate it! I dig them out from my inbox occasionally when I need the additional ego-boost when I'm feeling down. I'm so glad we're both Vice-Capts and the opportunities we have to work together is probably really a lot and I'm looking forward to it! :D Let's make Waddle an amazing house! (: Thanks so much and goodluck for sec three - balancing PSB & House will be quite a challenge but I'm sure you'll manage well :D

2011 has been brilliant with you guys, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 

Smurfs/ 13atch!

Hey smurfies (:
You guys have made CCA so much more meaningful than it already is! You guys make me look forward to Guides sessions - no matter how tired I am at the end of the school day, I would do my very best to gather all the energy to push myself to go for Guides because I know that it's all worth it and you guys are so so so amazing! I think our batch really bonded so much this year and I'm so happy to be spending a part of my 4 years in RGS with such amazing batchmates like you guys :D

In particular, I'd like to mention a few wonderful batchies;

Christina; Hey Chris! (: I think you're one of the few people who actually reads my blog hehe! Thanks so much for being such an amazing friend this past two years! :D You're so fun to be with, and I love love love how we can talk about anything especially on our (or rather your) interesting life that includes the presence of guys :D We can really talk about anything and everything and I love how well we click! You're so awesome and good luck for 2012! I think you will be able to balance PSB and your acads well! Oh and I'm really looking forward to doing RS with you!

Ragini; Hey Ragini! (: Thanks so much for being such a wonderful person to be with really! Bus rides with you are so amazing because of the heart-to-heart talks we have! You give wonderful advice to my problems and I truly appreciate everything we have been through together! Remember that you are not alone and keep believing because you are an amazing person and I will always be there for you whenever you need it :D Looking forward to working with you for House and jiayou for everything! 

Michelle; Hey Zhu! :D You are so amazing and hyper! I love how the both of us can laugh endlessly and it's just so crazy! I miss you so much, you were an amazing patrol mate and the fun we had was undescribable :D Stay happy despite everything and I believe in whatever you do! Just remember that I'll always be there for you! Goodluck Michy Moo! :D  

2011 has been brilliant with you guys, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 


Hey guys! :D
I don't know you guys that well, and I don't have a photo of us together but I think that you guys are really awesome! (: You make me feel so very welcome even though I was a second intake and so far, you guys have been such fun people to be with and this is a strong word, but I'm already loving all of you guys! Ooh, new uniforms on Wednesday, so exciting (': 

2011 has been brilliant with you guys, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 

Dragons & Caves!

Hey Gary, Matthew, Emily, Alina, Ryan, Nigel, Jerome! 
I don't have a photo of us together but I just wanted to say that you guys are so amazing, even though we don't meet up very often, having the Facebook group and that one outing/gathering was already so powerful! It felt so relaxing and I'm so fortunate to be able to still keep in contact with all of you! And you guys are the people who can really make me laugh like crazy :D I love all of you like mad! We should really meet up sometime! I need to de-stress (: 

2011 has been brilliant with you guys, I hope that 2012 will be even more amazing (': 

Last but not least, thanks so much to my family! I love you guys so much! 

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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

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Before I start on my super long new year's post that I'm going to post when the clock strikes 12 to New Year's Day, I thought I'd give a little teaser/ quiz sort of think to refresh my memory on the things that have happened this year. 

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before? 
Gosh this is difficult - my memory doesn't stretch that far to cover the entire year. This is probably going to be the more recent events. Cried for an artiste, Laugh till I cried (yes, I do laugh a lot, but I've never laughed to this extent till this year), Sleepover at somewhere other than relative's, Made an announcement in front of RGS, Put on braces, Have so much fun. Really, 2011 was a great year. Anyway, I can't think of anymore so yeap.
2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year? 
I think my New Year's resolution was to work harder - to study a lot. I don't think I've kept it very much, but I did try my best I guess. Yes, I'd definitely would! And I will stick to it (fat hope! xD)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? 
My cousin Karen. I'm not really close to her, but we're relatives, so we're close by blood I guess!
4. Did anyone close to you die? 
Fortunately, no.
5. What countries did you visit? 
None, if you don't know me by now, I hate travelling! Oh wait, we went to Batam during our Learning Journey. Does that count?
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
A bit more free time, I guess (: 
7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory? 
September 1 (with reasons confidential), November 1 (drama nite!), November 9 (last day of sec two). That's about it (:
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? 
Hacing the guts to take on bigger responsibilities. And definitely campaigning for Waddle Vice Capt, and eventually getting the position (': 
9. What was your biggest failure? 
Thinking that I'm a failure. 
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? 
A few asthma attacks here and there, but not anything extremely serious. 
11. What was the best thing you bought? 
The most versatile pair of shorts ever. I realized I didn't purchase any major items this year. 
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration? 
Most definitely my brother. 
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed? 
14. Where did most of your money go? 
Food (I'm such a glutton but I don't really care, food really brings about pleasure for myself)
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? 
The wonderful doors of opportunities that opened this year. And definitely Drama Nite. I mean, staging a musical in front of the lower sec cohort was a once-in-a-lifetime experience. Oh yes, and hearing George Watsky in J8's toilet. Brought me to tears.
16. What song/album will always remind you of 2011? 
Pumped up kicks MIXTAPE  by George Watsky, yes not Foster the People! It's exciting but scary.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you: 
i. happier or sadder? I'm not really sure, I'm not happier, but I'm not sadder. Maybe about the same. But I have more things weighing down on my mind now. 
ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter, definitely 
iii. richer or poorer? Richer (: 
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? 
Spending more time with my family and being more attentive/ responsive towards my parents.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? 
Acting like someone else. 

20. How will you be spending Christmas? 
I'm doing this quiz after Christmas, I spent it at my aunt's house for a Christmas lunch before heading to Orchard with Emily to experience the Christmas mood (:

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with? 
I don't usually chit-chat on the phone nowadays though. 

22. Did you fall in love in 2011? 
No serious love, possibly infatuations. 

23. How many one night stands in this last year? 
None, not ever. 

24. What was your favourite TV programme? 
The X Factor USA, Truimph in the Skies (HK drama) 

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? 
I don't really hate that person, I'm just a bit unhappy, but yes sort of. 

26. What was the best book you read? 
Do you mean this year? O: Come to think of it, I didn't read much this year except for academic stuff. Romeo and Juliet was a pretty good book actually (:

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? 
George Watsky. And Tim Minchin. They are both amazing.

28. What did you want and get? 

29. What did you want and not get? 
A path. 

30. What was your favourite film of this year? 
The Lion King in 3D (: Most definitely. I was so moved right at the start when the Circle of Life started playing. 

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 
Nothing much, went out with friends (: I was 14. I still am actually. This is interesting.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? 
Having a crush. (I find this super weird, but life is much more exciting with such things to look forward to. I mean, even if the person doesn't like you, I find it extremely cool to develop a crush on someone.)

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011? 
I've definitely attempted to move away from the shorts-and-teeshirts kind of dressing more now and bought about four dresses and three skirts this year (: It's basically casual but try-to-be chic (:

34. What kept you sane? 
Dips in a bathtub. Support from friends. 

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? 
Steve Jones (:

36. What political issue stirred you the most? 
This year's watershed General Election, most definitely! I felt so involved, especially during the Aljunied case. Looking back at my past blogposts, my was I really affected by the GE! I wrote dramatically long blogsposts supporting the PAP xD No regrets definitely. 

37. Who did you miss? 
No one in particular.

38. Who was the best new person you met? 
Waddle House Comm 2012. It's not really a person, but it's a fantastic group of people

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011. 
Life doesn't get anywhere if you don't have a particular goal in mind.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. 
"If I could go back back then, I was a stupid dumbass, I'd do it all again" - Stupidass by George Watsky. 
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Monday, December 26, 2011

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standing in the middle of orchard road whee.

It's Boxing Day today (nope, I'm not going to crack another overused joke about boxing people on this day)
Yesterday was Christmas. It was pretty good.

I didn't feel especially festive, it was just like a normal day, unlike previous years where I would really feel super duper excited. But it was a good day nonetheless. Went to the usual Christmas lunch at my aunt's house! It was a little more toned-down this year, more of a family affair kind of thing. But it was cosy and pretty lovely. The Christmas spirit wasn't evident though, I couldn't feel it very much. 

Anyway, after that, I went to meet Emily at about 5pm. We headed to Orchard - the Christmas spirit was definitely present there! It felt so amazing. I'm not quite sure what the Christmas spirit really is, but there was some sort of festive mood all around as soon as you step out. There were people everywhere (wearing Christmas hats, may I add!) and the streets had beautiful lights hanging all around. 

It was my first time at Orchard on Christmas Day, and boy, it was an experience I'd like to experience for the next few Christmases! Surprisingly, it wasn't raining at all, the weather was really good (: The roads were cordoned off for a floating display and there was another side where many (like really, MANY!) folks were line-dancing to popular hits. The atmosphere was awesome. Emily and I did super stupid things, but it was fun! (:

This is really unsubstantial, I feel like I used to post better stuff /: 
Ahh well, it's not like I guarantee good posts hahaha!

But we're gonna have a House Comm BBQ + Secret Santa tomorrow (: I think that's pretty cool 8) Maybe I'll have more things to post soon!

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Saturday, December 24, 2011

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it's christmas eve!

I'd probably won't be blogging tomorrow, so MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance!

It's already Christmas, time seriously passes incredibly fast. Incredibly fast. Seriously, I feel as though the Earth is spinning faster and faster every year.

Yesterday, we found out our classes (the school hasn't officially released it, bu some genius found out how to find our class through our RGS email database) - I'm in 306 which in my opinion is a pretty cool class (: We've already created a Facebook group and I've seen my classmates around. But all these just made it me realize how real it is - that we've all got to move on from our lower sec classes and start anew. It's quite scary and I'm a bit apprehensive but I'm relatively confident of making new friends. 

Oh well, time is passing way too fast. 
Treasure the moments. Like Christmas tomorrow! 

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Monday, December 19, 2011

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not knowing who you really are, pretending, and trying to fit in. 

I'm so sorry for not updating for quite some time. For real-time updates (not like my life's extremely interesting, but y'know I feel quite bad when I don't update here), feel free to follow my twitter @yupjuju /shameless advertising/

Truth be told, I've been thinking.
Going through some tough times and I'm being really difficult with myself. 

Four days ago, on the 15th of December, in the evening, I was in a mess. A really terrible, absolutely disastrous state. I was suffering from an Identity Crisis. I still am, in fact, but my emotions right now are more or less controlled and I probably won't burst into random fits of tears like I did that night. 

I came home from a long day in school - had PB AGM (which was quite fulfilling actually, but perhaps a bit too overwhelming which built up to my breakdown - it's not the cause though, may I add) and when I got home, I was welcomed by an empty home. At that point in time, I just felt really empty as well, I mean, I was tired and I was looking forward to coming home to a nice warm dinner. But there was nothing. Greeted by an empty home most definitely isn't the best feeling in the world. I guess I felt neglected.

It was utterly selfish of me to think that way because my mum quit her job when I was younger to take care of me herself and it was only when I grew up and slowly gained independence did she get back to what she loved to do, gradually as well. My dad has always fulfilled the duties of a father and I couldn't ask for more. However, that day, I just felt ridiculously angry and lonely. But being the relatively good daughter that I was, I started cooking dinner because for one, I was hungry and it was getting quite late. It wasn't my duty though. 

Bad decision. When I started cooking, I felt even more pathetic and so miserable. I had no idea why but I got into a really grumpy and frustrated mood and tears flowing down from my eyes. My life felt meaningless. When my parents came home, dinner was ready but their daughter was practically shouting at them. (For that, I truly apologize, I do.) What got into me, I really do not know but that night, I reflected about my life and felt that it was rather directionless, I really didn't know what my ultimate goal/purpose was and well, I felt empty. Really empty

Who am I, really? Am I trying to be someone else? I really did not know. I felt so miserable when I couldn't find answers that night. I actually debated committing suicide but that was definitely too extreme - I knew I couldn't and don't worry, I will never do that, no matter what happens. My mum came into my room and she was just really so worried about me. I totally just brushed her off because I felt so ridiculous and lost, I didn't know how to explain what I was going through at that time to her. I still find it difficult to explain what I was feeling but this website summed most of it up (: 

I'm feeling much better now and everything. My mum was so worried for my well being that she actually quickly planned a short getaway by booking a room at Swissôtel The Stamford during the weekends so that I could take my head away from all the stress and crap of my daily life - didn't check my email for those two days which felt like heaven. Went for shopping therapy (plus last minute Christmas shopping!) at the shopping malls near Swissôtel, namely Raffles City and Suntec. The view from the hotel was amazing. Slept on the bed next to the balcony and I starred at the sky and stars above Singapore's city lights throughout the night. It felt so relaxing and perfect to reflect. 

yes, this is actually taken by me! the view was really beautiful - you can see the singapore flyer and the esplanade and MBS and all that! these are the things that make me #proudtobeasingaporean

The only complain I have is the food at the restaurants there. They were definitely below expectations, especially for such a hotel. 

After attempting to getaway from reality to think about  my future, I still haven't figured out the path and direction of my life but as I'm trying to find out, I'm just gonna live my life to the fullest and do my best in everything I do (I know it sounds extremely cheesy but it's true. That's the best I can do). I really hope to mature out from this Identity Crisis soon, with answers, of course!

By the way, the recent spate of unfortunate MRT incidents really put Singapore in quite a bad light, I'm rather disappointed & I can't imagine the impression we have given to the tourists that witnessed the bad handling of matters but I feel that Singaporeans should really be patient with the operators because everyone are humans, and aren't perfect so making mistakes is something not unexpected. 
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Tuesday, December 13, 2011

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I think this is quite true, no point being angry at anyone because you're probably just adding to that person's burden and I know it's difficult to contain your anger sometimes, but really, sometimes we do actually get mad for no particular reason, or rather a reason that wasn't that major after all. 

I have two extremes in terms of my emotions. I can be really high, happy and crazy but the other extreme of me would definitely be my inability to control my anger - I get pissed off really easily for just the teeny tiniest fault or mistake anyone makes. I can't contain my frustration and I do show it on my face. The worst part is that I vent/ show my anger more often to my parents. I realize that sometimes because of the generation gap, it might just be a little more difficult to communicate or find the same frequency to converse in. 

It's not some sort of language barrier - of course, because they're my parents, not my grandparents, but sometimes they just don't get me and I get really angry. Sometimes they forget something that I've told them earlier and again I lose control of my emotions and show my annoyance to them. I know it's probably quite heartbreaking for them, to see their obedient lovely child turn into a rebellious teen (alright, I don't rebel to such an extent to allow myself that title but...you get the idea.) I don't promise that I won't lose my temper anymore but I promise that I will definitely do my best to contain whatever unhappiness I have because half the time, I'm usually the one at fault.

On the topic of kindness, I am usually one who doesn't give up my seat on buses/ MRTs/ any form of public transport. (I usually choose not to take a seat and stand instead) Sometimes though, when I do get a seat, I see someone older than me and to be completely honest, I don't give my seat up. I know it's unbecoming of me but I truly find it awkward to be standing up in say, a crowded bus and I don't want to offend the person whom I'm offering my seat to - they might think they're old or something. 

Recently, I felt really touched by a sight I witnessed - there was this China national on the MRT carriage and when a seat was empty, he rushed for it (stereotypical Chinese behavior - yes I know I was really cynical at that time; I truly apologize for such a thought I had). I could tell that he was really tired, it was probably after a hard day's at work and that seat would grant him a bit of comfort for his aching legs for the time being. At the next station, an elderly man came in and that Chinese man looked up from his handphone, saw that elderly man and immediately got up with a smile. At the point in time, I realized how judgmental I have been at the start, feeling a bit pissed when he rushed for the seat - "Why did the Government allow all these ungracious foreigners come?" was probably a thought flashing through my mind. Then, I witnessed such a wonderful sight, and felt so bad about myself. 

Today, however, was my first ever experience giving my seat up and boy, was it fulfilling! (: I'm really proud of myself actually. I know it's probably a really simple action everyone should be doing (and people reading this are scoffing at me right now), but I didn't get to doing it till today. This isn't to brag that I've done a kind deed or anything (kindness should be kept subtle) but I just wanted to share this experience to those who have faced the same challenges like I did initially in terms of giving up my seat. It came quite naturally; I didn't receive big thank you's from that elderly gentleman but I did get a nod of thanks and that was more than enough to lift my spirits for the rest of today. 

I just feel that kindness should really be passed on; it's really what keeps our world the way it is (':

I don't feel like I'm doing enough though, I should really try to carry out more little acts of kindness. Although there's something I really enjoy doing and am continuing to do it on a regular basis. It's really simple and that is to smile at every bus driver/ security guard/ even some random strangers sometimes. It makes me really so much happier, best of all it's so simple - with a twitch of a muscle you never know but you could be making someone's day - do try it! 

I have no idea why I feel like spreading kindness and stuff all of a sudden, it's a bit weird (x 
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Thursday, December 8, 2011

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Army food's pretty good. 

It wasn't crazyyyyyyy good, but it was relatively okay and quite balanced, although I wouldn't mind a larger helping. So my brother got enlisted this morning, it was quite an experience being able to tour the place and it definitely gives parents (and siblings) a peace of mind. I wasn't that worried as compared to my parents of course. 

The journey to Pulau Tekong was really long though, I hated it. We had to gather at Pasir Ris Interchange before proceeding to take a shuttle bus to the SAF Jetty and sitting a ferry to the island where the Basic Military Training  (BMT) course will be held. When we reached the place, it actually looked like a resort at first sight, or less exaggerated, a nice school. It looked really modernized and not like a campsite in the wilderness which I had imagined it to be.  Soldiers these days get it way easier (but still tough) than my dad's time, or even before! 

The place actually looked and felt like RI. I think it was because of the all-boys kind of feel and the only all-boys school which I have stepped in was RI. That kind of feeling was quite good and I guess it probably made my brother feel more at home. The NS men there seemed really friendly (perhaps they would evolve into strict beasts when the guests have left the island) but overall it seemed like a pretty good place to go (as in, parents would probably be less anxious after touring the place). We passed by new recruits that got enlisted just a while before my brother's batch and they all looked super young and un-buff but they were waving to us and the atmosphere wasn't what I would have expected of an army. I'm not saying that Singapore's National Service's standards are dropping or that they're becoming more slack but what I really admire was the feeling of brotherhood between the guys. It was a work-and-play kind of ambiance, I guess. 

After all the admin and ceremonial procedures, we had an experience of how army food tasted like. It was actually quite good (like I mentioned above)! Then it was time for us to leave. Nothing got emotional, the tour definitely gave parents the impression that their sons weren't going into anything life-threatening, which was true. My brother actually looked really cool in the NS men black thick frame specs, he should continue to wear that in future. 

I'm glad there weren't any tears or anything, it's actually quite amusing how I initially thought that there would be. However, it's difficult to deny the fact that something has changed and my brother is definitely stepping into a new stage of his life - defending the country. It sounds drama and everything - as if Singapore will be attacked by enemies etc but I actually feel quite proud of him. SAF has worked their patriotism magic on me.

Time is passing really fast, no one can really deny that and my maternal grandparents were present at my brother's enlistment today because my mum had remembered my grandma commenting a long time ago when my brother was young that she wanted to witness the baby she was holding in her arms (my brother) at that time enter the army and fight for the country. Having them there made me realize how fast my brother (and myself) have grown, from such young babies.

They were aging, and I didn't want that to happen. So are my parents. It's only a matter of time, (taboo as it might be) before they pass away. It's something I had to face and I didn't want that to happen. However, death is unavoidable, all we can do is to cherish the ones we have right now.

Speaking of cherish, I'd like to apologize to my mum (she won't see this but as long as ) for arguing with her in the car on the way back from my brother's enlistment. It's difficult to imagine why I got so angry and pissed off at such a trivial matter that is even embarrassing to mention again. At first, I was still fuming and got really irritated at her, even after reaching home for quite some time. Then I watched a video just posted by WongfuProductions.

It made me realize the things that parents/ families do and that sometimes we overlook the most important things. I actually cried really badly while watching this. I thought of everything my parents (especially my mum, in this context) have done and felt quite bad about throwing tantrums sometimes when they have tried so hard to give me the best and everything. 

cherish (':

p/s: As I was typing this blog post, my brother just made his first phone call back from the army camp! He said that dinner wasn't as good as lunch = lunch was for show for the guests :D hehehe but he's surviving and said that everything's not too bad! Most exciting part : He shaved his head omg I really can't imagine. 
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Wednesday, December 7, 2011

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I just realized I don't have a recent photograph of my brother and I.

Oh well, he doesn't enjoy having photographs taken of him I think, much less with this sister of his.
I'm sorry I haven't been blogging recently but I was really really sick. Alright, not 'really really' but I was quite sick and it felt terrible. Down with a sorethroat and a terrible flu and I'd like to say fever as well to gain pity points but it wasn't quite a case of fever. 

Actually, I have been sick for the past couple of days and I realized I didn't even blog about my Guides COH camp which was held on the 2-3 of December. It was really really good and fun. Christina, Fatima, Ragini, Jing En, Valerie, Ailica and myself were gossiping and talking about juicy and interesting stuff. We are seriously so deprived sigh. But I love you guys so much!

Alright so what's been up with my life? I have been dwindling my time away. I mean, there's so much stuff a sick person can do right? But, something quite crazy's gonna happen tomorrow.

My brother, (yes that handsome guy sitting beside me in the picture above) is going to enlist into the army! By the way, he used to be so handsome when he was younger. He's not ugly or anything now, but he isn't as dashing hehe :D Anyway, it's quite scary to think that that room would be empty for quite a while. As in, I know he's coming back occasionally and everything but I won't see him that often and it makes me wonder how life would go on.

I know, it isn't something extremely major but all my 14 years on this cruel planet, this brother figure has always been there. Whoever can I ask if I have any Science/ Philosophy related questions? Who's plate can I dump my leftover dinner on? I mean, the dustbin could be an option, but it would be quite wasteful. It's not going to be a sad or negative change, but something's going to be different, that's for sure. As for my brother, it seems like a big milestone for him - from a guy to a man. I'm quite proud of him sigh (': /motherly instincts/

Anyway, I've been addicted to this game on Facebook recently - don't worry, I get obsessed to things for good reasons, I don't see myself as a particularly frivolous person. The game's called Wetopia and you can play it here on Facebook. Seriously, go play it! Because by playing and earning "Joy", you can actually send joy to the less fortunate in Haiti/ US/ and soon to be available Africa. 100 Joy points translates to say, 2 hot meals for a Haiti kid. So how does this work? By playing the game, it will get more popular = advertizers would want to advertize at the sidebars and some players would buy Facebook credits. So 50% of Wetopia's earnings will go to the cause which you have selected :D

So far, I've given 4 hot meals to kids in Haiti, and helped in keeping kids healthy in a Haiti classroom :D Oh, and I've sent 1 litre of water to help children in the real world as well! (:

Although I can't see what I have done, I think that this game is amazing and I trust the producers to donate what they have said to do and I have ultimate faith that they are doing it because of celebrity endorsements of this game by names such as Ellen Degeneres. So play the game! Make a difference (: It's actually really fun too! 
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