Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Today was an eventful day. Too eventful, I might add. I'm quite overwhelmed.

Started the day at 4am to revise a bit more of Chemistry and Math. 
Yes, I had three papers today. Chemistry, Math and History. 

They all went super badly. Alright, maybe not all, but Chemistry and Math were quite terrible. I'm really really afraid. It's the first time that I've felt this way for any exam. It just felt horrible. The point is that I did study and put in a lot of effort but it just so happened that my mind just became really blank when I entered the exam room and everything just couldn't be applied. I'm not sure what happened to me, perhaps there's too many things going through my mind these few days (actually months) and I can't stay focused for long. 

It was quite a wake up call for me that I'm not focusing on the things that are "more important". At least the way they calculate the GPA would be 5 core and 2 best. Perhaps I could remove Chemistry if it really turns out horrible. But what really hit me today was that I might have too many things on my plate and it's affecting what's important (note that it's not what's important to me). If I don't do well this term, I'm not going to go for what I want to do next year because Academics are still most important I guess. As I type this, I have a horrible sinking feeling in my stomach. I don't want to give up what I've felt so strongly for and enjoyed (still enjoying actually) so much.

Anyway, after the papers, I went to watch The Hunger Games with Christina, Jaclyn and Thiyana at Lido. There were so many RGS girls, it was quite amusing that all of us flocked to watch that after the exams. It was a pretty good movie (I didn't read the book, by the way), no doubt, although I wouldn't call myself a fan. I felt that some of the themes were a bit strange and the transition from the weirdness of the Capital to some sort of Lord of the Flies setting was kind of abrupt. I liked how comparisons could be made from The Hunger Games and Lord of the Flies. We could see the savagery when people became desperate - the inner evil would show. It's also really sadistic to see how humans are - they made it really quite obvious in the movie and I think in real life, all of us has this inner evil, it's just that we were brought up to know that it's socially unacceptable. Thinking about such characteristics of human nature, it's quite scary to be honest. But the movie not too bad, I'm glad I went to catch it. 

Christina and I talked about so many different things while we were having lunch (': Our commitments and the many crazy things happening to our lives nowadays. Sigh, everything's progressing and I'm not sure if it's for the better. The world is quite a scary place. 

Moot Parliament Programme visit to the Parliament House tomorrow!
I'm very very excited 8) 

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