Wednesday, January 15, 2014

"Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten" 

Tomorrow, a new chapter of my life is going to begin. And I only have one thing to say, as seen in the picture above, COME AT ME BRO.

No, but seriously. I don't think there's any way I'd be able to avoid it and since it's here, why not embrace it? What am I talking about - if only I could be so brave as to face Junior College with an open mind. Truth be told, I am worried, I am nervous and I am scared. There isn't any other way to put it and honestly, it's driving me insane. There are so many uncertainties and it's not even about the future but the present. I'm not even sure what's going to happen from here but I'd still have to face it.

Then again, I'm a great believer of one being able to control one's own fate and destiny. I suppose no one knows what's going to happen from here but I guess I'm the only one in the position to steer my life towards the things that I would want to happen to me.

It's so scary, though because admittedly, I have completely no idea of where I'd like to be going for during my two years in this education institute. One of the most important things would definitely to work towards good grades and to place more emphasis on my academics because it's been taking a backseat for the past 4 years, especially last year but I need to buck up and get down to serious business (HAHA up and down do you get it) because the A Level examinations are a real thing and something I wouldn't want to screw up.

However, I'm one who can't sit still wherever I go - not literally - and I love to get involved with lots of things, mostly leadership and community based stuff, at the expense of my academics. So I'm at a lost as to what I should do with my life over the next two years. I know, there are some people who are brilliant at juggling their commitments but I'm not one of those people and I know I have to choose. Good A Level grades will probably mean good courses in a local university but good CCA/ leadership track records will probably mean a higher chance at overseas universities and perhaps scholarships? I really don't know. I'm just hoping everything will work out eventually and when I look back on this blog post two years down the road, everything would have been great and I wouldn't be regretting any decision I made.

Let's go Li Yin (and everybody else embarking on a new journey - be it my batchmates, my friends from other schools heading to a new JC/ Poly/ anything else)! :-) Nothing has been decided, it's literally a blank slate for everyone to start anew. We hold the pens/ paintbrushes (if you're the more creative kind)/ pencils (if you're the more careless kind) of our own blank pages!

I think it's kind of fitting that this is my five hundredth post on this blog. I mean, it's half of a thousand? I can't believe I've been keeping this blog for about 4+ years now - I'm actually pretty damn impressed with myself because I'm the kind of person who never could properly keep a diary for an entire year and I usually give up halfway (note: diary means the kind where you write thoughts, and are not to be confused with planners because I rely on my planners 24/7). So it's pretty cool that my last post as a non-JC student is my 500th post - the next time I write, I'd probably be all grown up already! No, no not really.

Okay, wow - writing this post was actually pretty therapeutic and believe it or not but I'm actually feeling quite excited for tomorrow. Hopefully, I'd be able to get my life sorted in time for everything before actual classes start officially.

To end off, here's one of my favourite childhood pop songs! Most people identify this song with the Pantene shampoo TV commercial but honestly it's a really uplifting song and if you've never heard this song properly, please do :-) 

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you 
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else 
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself with words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

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