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Happy Lunar New Year! (: 

not exactly, but yeap in about an hour's time.

There's something different about this year's Lunar New Year. 

And most other festivities that have happened recently. Not sure why, but they seemed to have lost their "spark" and it doesn't feel quite right. It doesn't feel as vibrant, as exciting, as special. It all seems too predictable, feeling somewhat like a yearly ritual instead. 

I'm not complaining - despite these occasions being less exciting, the atmosphere is still a bit better than a normal day. It's much happier, for one. However, I definitely don't look forward to it as much as I used to when I was younger and I don't like this feeling. I want to feel that same sense of anticipation as I did. At this point of time - 1 hour before CNY - a few years back, I'd be so excited, I'd be fighting to stay awake, I'd be trying to sneakily steal some chocolate from the 八宝盒 (eight treasures box, typically used to store candy in my family) in the living room. A few years down the road and I'm just calmly sitting here in front of the computer typing this blog post comparing how my behavior has changed over the years. For the worse, may I add. 

All negativity aside, there's something about Chinese New Year that doesn't get old - nope, it isn't money (although money's good) but the opportunity to get together with my family. I used to never really truly understand why people treasure the getting-together during Chinese New Year that much but know I realize. It seems really a bit more precious nowadays as I'm normally really busy on normal days to talk to my family properly, my brother is in the Army and my parents are spending more time on work now that we've more or less "grown up". 

I can't stress enough how much I hate growing up, but it's reality and there's really nothing I can do about it. So yes, one of the things I miss will probably be spending quality time with my family so I'm really glad that Chinese New Year allows us to do things together. I'm quite looking forward to that (:

I'M BECOMING  INCOHERENT. SO I SHALL STOP HOHO :3